Monday, September 17, 2012

Takut


Salam alaik,

Ai semua… lately KB bz cket. Turun naik site jangan cakap. But da nama pon keje. KB x merungut sikit pon. KB enjoy keje tu. Balik dari site singgah umah mandi-mandi solat… Lepas magrib datang balik opis.. Balik lak tengah-tengah malam. Since KB da bertunang… xtivity KB agak slow. Smua kene punch card. YES! Sorry All… I have been engaged.  Bukan x nak cite but KB x rasa nak share. But since KB x leh tanggung. So KB pown cite la. L

Actually KB takut sangat dengan perkataan NIKAH dan KAHWIN. Bukan KB x nak kawen… mesti la nak. Excited sangat bile dengar orang nak kawen. Tapi kadang-kadang sedih gak. Kawan-kawan len da kawen tapi KB? Entah la.. Mungkin belum jodoh lagi. But this time I’m having scared! Takut nak kawen. L

Takut sebab?? I’m scared if I cant be the best for HIM.. I’m scared if I cant be the best as a wife..  I’m scared if I cant be the best as a friend for him..  I’m scared if I cant be the best as a soul mate for him..  I’m scared if I cant be the best as a mom for his child..  I’m scared if I cant be the best as daughter in law..  I’m scared if I cant be the best as sister in law.. All of them make me scared. L

 This week En.Tunang balik cini. Then wat la preparation cket. The part yg make me so scared is when he brought MAS KAHWIN for me. L.. so meaning… we are too closed to geting married… aduhai.. betol kene ni? Then he start to comment who am i.. sometimes feel ‘y now… ya Allah… berikanlah ak kesabaran yang tinggi jika ini jodohku… jika ini bakal pembimbing ak..’.. bak cakap diyana, one of my ex-schoolmate said ‘rasa x nak kawen pon ad weh’… serius!! Its happened it to me also.


So frenz… please wish for my strength.. chayok-chayok…. Adoiii..

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